Do I have ADHD? Your ADHD journey is personal and unique

Googling ADHD is a trip. Most of us start there. Or with reels, wormholes and twenty tabs deep, riffing on the question: do I have ADHD?I think I have ADHD.I probably have ADHD.

Maybe I’m just... like this?

We’re looking for the magic moment where our lives finally make sense. But the internet is a noisy place and a search engine can only get you so far. Sometimes, the algorithm just leaves you exhausted. We need real experts with lived experience. We need other people.

Not me, I’m busy

It’s easy to talk yourself out of it. You read about hyperactivity and think, well, I can sit still for hours. You read the checklists and you don’t interrupt conversations. In fact, you’re actually quite quiet.

Besides, you don't have time for a crisis. There are other people to focus on. You’ve become good at putting your own needs on the back burner to make sure everyone else stays organised.

Perhaps, while you were busy getting shit done, your brain was even busier thinking about an awkward conversation you had years ago or finding a moment of quiet to search marketplace for the lamp you definitely need. That room would look better with a softer lightbulb, right?

The truth is, ADHD is a deeply personal (often weird) journey. It shows up differently for me than it does for you. But there might be experiences we have in common.  

Wait, you too?

ADHD can show up in the messy gaps of our lives. It’s in the way we give everything to our professional lives and arrive home with nothing left for the people we love. It’s in the hyperfocus that we’re told is a superpower (the language we are surrounded with is a whole other conversation) until the burnout hits and stays. It’s in the monologue of too much energy and the sensory shutdown of too much going on. These aren’t just traits on the side. They are the real rhythms of our life.

What do you do with all this information?

A diagnosis, a realisation or even a loud suspicion of ADHD is a beautiful starting point. But then what? There is work that comes afterwards. It’s in this shift between why am I like this to how do I work with this?

We aren't trying to become normal nor make ourselves smaller to fit in. We are supporting each other to become real experts in our own behaviour.

This isn't a journey you have to take alone. While the way your ADHD presents is personal and unique, finding a community that gets it can make all the difference.

There is a space just for you

Actually, we put together a group to support the start of your journey. If you’ve been recently diagnosed or suspect you have ADHD, then come with your questions, your confusion and frustration. It’s all welcome. Want to learn more?

Harley Bell

Harley Bell is a poet from Aotearoa, New Zealand. He has been published in Tarot, A Fine Line, Globally Rooted and Overcom. He spends his time in cafes, libraries, forests and parks. He draws inspiration from the conversation between the natural world and cityscapes. He isn’t sure why he wrote this in the third person.

https://www.harleybellwriter.com
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